He talked a lot about what might happen and asked me a lot of questions this morning-many I didn't have answer for yet and then he hugged me and just cried-I have been pretty strong around him till then. I hugged him back and wept as well. We just held each other and cried. I think it was really good for both of us in a way. Tonight at dinner he kept bringing up cancer and asking me what they do for that. I talked with him a little about it but I said I am choosing to think, believe, hope, and pray that it is not cancer right now-so lets not dwell on that and talk about that part right now-we may have to at some point but for now lets both think good thoughts and just ask God who is bigger than all of this to help us through it.
He seemed ok with that. Just a few minutes ago while getting ready for bed he was singing the Veggie Tale song "God's Big, I'm little" and he stopped and said "Mom ya know God is so big that I am just like a crumb compared to him-we are all just like crumbs to him-right mom?" It made me giggle-I love that he felt ok enough to talk about possibly having cancer and he was just matter-a-fact with it(of course he doesn't really know what that means-I told him that your body is sick) but then he was processing it and was singing God's big, I'm little-which the song goes on to say that God can use little people to big things too and he is believing God's big-bigger than all of this.
I am believing God will do big things with this situation-with my Brandon. What an awesome testimony he will have one day when we come out on the other side of things.
On a lighter note, my Mike (hubby and daddy) had to work some today on a online course to get ready for it (he will be teaching this summer) since we don't know what the next few weeks or months will hold for us. So the kids and I ran errands (they spent money from Easter that was burning a whole in their pockets) and then we went to see some friends. I had my camera in the car and on our way home we went past some fields on the highway (lol-you will see a big truck in one of the photos I couldn't crop out) of Blue Bonnets (the Texas state flower)-we had to stop and literally take time to smell the flowers. We had fun and I got to take some photos. Especially loving the ones of my Brandon and cherishing those today.