Saturday, April 10, 2010

Took Time to Stop and Smell the Flowers

Brandon was full of questions and some tears today.  At six he is not really understanding why he has to be the one to go through this.  We had a scare while we were out at Wal-mart as well, he fell walking with his crutches and on the hip that is already fractured and has the cysts-scared me to death-him too.  He cried but got right back up and said he was ok.  He is having a hard time adjusting to using them every time he has to be up walking around.  He is a kid full of life and he is hard to slow down-not always easy to do on crutches.
He talked a lot about what might happen and asked me a lot of questions this morning-many I didn't have answer for yet and then he hugged me and just cried-I have been pretty strong around him till then.  I hugged him back and wept as well.  We just held each other and cried.  I think it was really good for both of us in a way.  Tonight at dinner he kept bringing up cancer and asking me what they do for that.  I talked with him a little about it but I said I am choosing to think, believe, hope, and pray that it is not cancer right now-so lets not dwell on that and talk about that part right now-we may have to at some point but for now lets both think good thoughts and just ask God who is bigger than all of this to help us through it.
He seemed ok with that.  Just a few minutes ago while getting ready for bed he was singing the Veggie Tale song "God's Big, I'm little" and he stopped and said "Mom ya know God is so big that I am just like a crumb compared to him-we are all just like crumbs to him-right mom?" It made me giggle-I love that he felt ok enough to talk about possibly having cancer and he was just matter-a-fact with it(of course he doesn't really know what that means-I told him that your body is sick) but then he was processing it and was singing God's big, I'm little-which the song goes on to say that God can use little people to big things too and he is believing God's big-bigger than all of this.
I am believing God will do big things with this situation-with my Brandon.  What an awesome testimony he will have one day when we come out on the other side of things.
On a lighter note,  my Mike (hubby and daddy) had to work some today on a online course to get ready for it  (he will be teaching this summer)  since we don't know what the next few weeks or months will hold for us. So the kids and I ran errands (they spent money from Easter that was burning a whole in their pockets) and then we went to see some friends.  I had my camera in the car and on our way home we went past some fields on the highway (lol-you will see a big truck in one of the photos I couldn't crop out) of Blue Bonnets (the Texas state flower)-we had to stop and literally take time to smell the flowers.  We had fun and I  got to take some photos. Especially loving the ones of my Brandon and cherishing those today.


Kaye said...

I came over to visit from the 2010 Ultimate Blog Party. I am so sorry to hear about the trial you are going through and am praying!

Barbie said...

Continuing to pray. It's so hard when our little ones ask us questions to which we do not have the answers. I believe God has gifted our children with extreme measures of faith. Peace and strength to you!

Rachel said...

I will be praying for your son. It is soooo hard when someone we love is in the midst of medical trials. My husband had cancer and that was so trying...I can not even imagine a I will be storming the gates of heaven on behalf of your Brandon.

God bless you. I'm glad that you were able to take some time to sit in the flowers. Although, lol, I started to sneeze just looking at them. Those pesky allergies of mine.


Lynnette Kraft said...

Dear Jill,
I can already see God at work in your lives. Through this trial, God is showing you how faithful and true he is. The biggest trials can be the most blessed spiritual times when we cling to our Savior through them.

I've had you and Brandon on my mind constantly! I will continue to pray for all of you.

The pictures are just beautiful - and I'm so glad you took time to stop and smell the roses - Oh, I mean bluebonnets. :)

Much love,

Jenn said...

Beautiful flowers!!

Hope you are having fun at the UBP!

Jenni ("Miss Tutu")
My UBP blog post: How to Make a Tutu blog - hope you will stop by and say hi! :) and Mom Blogger $100 Cash Contest

Julie The Surrendered Scribe said...

First I was hear to pray via Lynette's blog, now I'm here as part of the UBP10. I look forward to reading more of your posts, and praising God with you.

I'm having a book giveaway at my blog, available through my website. Check it out at

Still praying,
Julie Arduini

Susan said...

Continuing to pray daily. Your pictures are priceless.

Blessings to you as you continue to "wait upon the Lord"...