Thursday, April 22, 2010

Sweet Friends-Yummy Cookies-Sweet Boy

I got my sweet Brandon up today-I got him up in the wheel chair for awhile this afternoon.  A step up from laying around all day.   He is in a lot of pain-which makes my heart very sad-his pain ball that was numbing his hip is now all gone so after some pain medicine tonight Mike and I are going to try and take off the tape-tubes-ball and dressing over the stitches-I must admit I am a little scared about doing this-not fun-and I am sure there will be screaming and crying from his part-crying from mine.

I don't do well with one of my kiddos hurting.  I actually thought about going back to school to be a nurse because I love people and would like making them feel better-but there is a part of me that doesn't think I could do it-my heart gets so heavy for hurting people- especially when it is people I love-it makes me sad and depressed when they are sad and hurting.  My poor baby boy is really hurting and I didn't think it would be quite so painful and when he cries and says I am hurting him (not what I want to hear when I am trying to help him) it breaks my heart into pieces. I am afraid if he keeps not moving it is only going to get worse and become more sore-he doesn't get that-but I can't just pull his leg down to the floor and make him stand-so there isn't much I can do-I am growing weary and worried.   Just prayed a long time today about it-trying to give it all over to God-He has gotten us this far already and I know He will bring us all the way through it-just a little harder than I thought it was going to be.   This is also the busiest time of year for me with my job at the church as the Children's Choir Coordinator and our programs are coming up in 3 weeks and I have so much to do for them and I am going no where because my Bran is home flat on his back.  Ok, enough venting!  I am done.

On a brighter note-my choir teachers for the Kindergarten class-Mrs Beth and Mr Greg Young and Tracy Patterson and Christy Adkins (Brandon is in their choir) sent him a yummy cookie basket and it was so sweet.  It did add a little bit of sunshine-and sugar (smile) to our kind of gloomy day.
Thanks to my wonderful choir teachers!  Thank you for loving my little boy every Wednesday night.  He loves you all.
On this Pathway -
Jill

7 comments:

BARBIE said...

I cannot even begin to fathom the breaking of your heart as your little one is hurting. I am praying that the pain will subside soon. Oh that cookie basket looks yummy! Good to see him smiling in the picture! Blessings!

Unknown said...

Thanks Barbie-we just took his tubing and medicine ball off of his hip the tubes went into his incision into his leg-kind of grossed me out pulling them out a few minutes ago-and the dressing off of the actual spot where they went in on his leg-it looks swollen and bruised-all the stitches are on the inside of his leg-it made me want to cry. The worst part was the tape-gee wiz that stuff was stuck to his belly-I felt like I was tearing his skin off with it.
Glad that part is over-I just want him to be able to stand and move-I am afraid of him getting blood clots or something from not moving after surgery.
Thanks for praying for him.
Hope you had a good afternoon-you have been on my mind a lot today since I read your blog-praying for you!
Hugs
Jill

Janettessage.blogspot.com said...

My heart goes out to you! I haven't done well with my children's pain either. My prayers are with you daily,
Blessings,
Janette

Dionna said...

You have a beautiful family. Thank you for stopping by my blog! :)

cooperkelly4 said...

Hi Jill! I didn't have your email, and didn't see another way to contact you. First, let me say it is so hard seeing your little one in pain. I know we would always rather it be us. Praying for Brandon and the rest of the family.

On to why I was trying to get ahold of you!!!
Hi Stephanie! Just wanted to let you know that you won the book:
by Lisa Welchel during my homeschool curriculum cleanout. Please send me your mailing address so I can mail this to you. You have until Wednesday by midnight to contact me. Thanks, Kelly Cooper

http://lovinglifeslittlemoments.blogspot.com/2010/04/drum-roll-please.html

Trisha said...

I'm hoping your dear son was able to enjoy that wonderful bouquet of cookies! I know this must be such a painful and challenging time for all of you....we're praying for you and your family.

Bethany said...

I hope things are looking better by now. I can only imagine the kind of pain he was (is) in. Poor little guy! Praying that God keeps you strong and heals your son quickly.

Hugs!!
Bethany