Yesterday the kids had off from school and since Brandon, Analeigh and I have been stuck at home for about 2 weeks my friend Donna suggested we go on a trip to Fredericksburg, TX for the day.
It was a wonderful trip overall just not what I had planned. The total trip was 3 hours each way on the way up close to Mason, TX for about 20 miles or more we saw the most beautiful wildflowers. It looked like God had taken a paint brush and painted the sides of the highway with multiple colors of the rainbow. It was just beautiful and so I had to stop the car and get the kids out and take a few photos. Glad I did that because after we arrived Analeigh got a belly ache and we ended up only getting to stay for 1 1/2 hours and turning around to drive home another 3 hours with her crying for half that trip. I was so stressed by the time we got home my shoulders hurt, my head hurt, my stomach hurt (happens whenever I am stressed out) and I felt terrible that the kids and my friend Donna basically rode 6 hours in the car for nothing more than flower photos and pumpernickel bread! lol
Me and My Friend Donna (such a blessing)
Oh well, the best laid plans of man-I hate dislike it strongly when I have this great plan and it doesn't go near as well I planned it would-I was sad and bummed at how the day had gone. It carried over into today I think because all day I have had one of those days where nothing really has gone wrong-but everything seems wrong-where I want to go back to bed and start the day over a different way. Where I feel like I have done nothing right, where I second guess everything I am currently doing, like with schooling our kids or not, with quitting my job or not. From not being the mom and wife I thought I would be, the friend or employee I thought or want to be, to being a more obedient child of God-the list just seemed to go on all day and I ended up in tears while driving to Wal-mart for some odds and ends.
Crazy-I know. Just how I am wired I guess. Anyways I am home now-not crying for the moment and decided I would share some of my photos.
Hoping and praying tomorrow is a better day-just pray for clarity for me-I am debating being able to keep working and home schooling Alyssa next year and having Analeigh home and yet needing the money-lots of things I feel like are up in the air and my heart is heavy over it all tonight. I am trying to rest and be quiet and let God speak to me (not easy if you know me-my mouth and mind are always going) I want to know with out a doubt I am doing and seeking God's will for my life-and the lives of my family.
On this pathway-